Mundane Life
I have to admit life has been pretty boring the last couple of days. Between grocery shopping and cleaning the toilets there has not been much to it. P. has been working late (it’s 2:57 AM and he should be home any second now) for a new client. I actually talked on the phone this afternoon without screaming or name calling. P. called a little after we hung up to say my mom called him to let him know I was more civil!
P. has promised not to work late Thursday or Friday and to take me out both nights. I’ve been wanting to see Pirates of the Caribbean.
I did start my period so I guess I’m not pregnant. The thought had me freaked out. Now I’m actually pretty sad that I’m not.
Add comment June 7, 2007
backpackinggurl
Weekend
P. came home Saturday afternoon. He spent the night at the cabin which is near Cookeville. I was so happy to see him! We talked all afternoon and night. He said he was not going to spank me until I proved that I really wanted him to be in charge! I told him I really did and would do anything to prove it! He told me that I was going to apologize to my mom and start to work things out. Well! When I opened my mouth to let him know what I thought of that he pinched my leg hard enough to leave a red spot. When I finished screaming because it hurt like heck, P. told me that he was going to do that anytime he thought I was going to open my mouth without thinking.
Sunday we went to Church with mom and dad. It was nice to see some of my friends from school. After Church we went to Jason’s Deli and ate. It almost killed me, but I told me mom I was sorry for what I said on the phone and for losing my temper. She apologized too and I started to cry! The whole time we were there P. would pinch me under the table when he thought I was about to go off. I think my dad figured out what was going on because he started laughing every time I jumped or yelled. When we got home I had a huge bruise on the side of my leg. P. and I layed on the couch and he held ice on it. That was wonderful!
I only have a few minutes for a blog. Today is grocery day, and I need to go to Publix. We are out of everything!
Add comment June 5, 2007
backpackinggurl
Big Fight
P. and I had a huge fight last night (Friday). My mom called him at work and told him what I said to her on Thursday. Okay, maybe I could have been a little nicer and not used so many “bad words”. That was one thing we agreed on – no swearing in our family. I accused him of taking her side and called him a few names. Maybe I said one or two bad words in the process. While I was screaming at him, he calmly yanked me over his knees and was about to spank me. I told him that if he put one hand on me I would call the police. The look on his face still hurts. He just stood and, without another word, left. I haven’t stopped crying yet. I know it was my fault. I just want him to come home.
Add comment June 2, 2007
backpackinggurl
Sick
About an hour and a half ago I started barfing my brains out. I called my mom to see what the medicine she used to give me was for upset stomachs (it is Emetrol). The first thing she asked was “are your pregnant?” That never occurred to me! I really started to freak out. What if I was? P. and I have had sex at least once every day since the wedding. My period isn’t due for another few days. I called P. and told him. He thinks it is food poisoning. I ate a ham and cheese croissant for breakfast. He used the same ham to make a sandwich for lunch. He said the ham smelled and tasted funny. He buy a two pack of pregnancy tests. I took one – and it came out negative. But the box said to wait until the first day of your missed period. So here I lay in bed, barfing, and freaking out about being pregnant.
E.
Add comment May 31, 2007
backpackinggurl
One Last Thing…
Okay, I had one last thing to say and then I really am going to go unpack some of those boxes!
Before P. and I were engaged we sat down and wrote a marriage contract. This isn’t anything like a prenuptial agreement. I wrote down what I wanted when married, and he wrote down what he wanted. It was actually fun to compare notes and negotiate. Sometimes we would get into a fight over stupid things. The biggest fight we had was his computer room. He has a bedroom full of old computer parts with this awful wood bench that he nailed together. He also has a room for his office. I wanted him to clean out the computer room so that I could have it as my writing room. He finally admitted it had been several months since he actually worked on anything in that room. I on the other hand had to throw out any of my books that would not fit on the bookshelves he installed in the room.
We ended up writing a ten page document in Word with everything we could think of!
Add comment May 31, 2007
backpackinggurl
Domestic Discipline
P. and I practice Domestic Discipline. In a word, he spanks me when I am disobedient or get out of line. You probably are wondering “How did I get into this?” and “Am I some messed up person?”
As long as I can remember I always enjoyed being the Damsel in Distress when playing with other kids. Somehow this always led into being tied up. I think the turning point was when I was fourteen. My parents took me to this gigantic outdoor flea market. I’m a big time bookworm. This one booth was selling books by the box. And they were big boxes. I bought one that seemed to be filled with mostly fantasy stories (I love Dragonlance). Buried in the box as if by fate was an old copy of Pauline Reage’s Story of O. It had a few pages missing but I got the message. I read and reread that book and still have it in my box of mementos. My life with P. is not quite as intense as O’s.
Several websites that I have checked out imply the Bible condones the husband spanking a wife. I grew up as a Baptist, and P. is a Baptist. I personally don’t think it does. I think there are certain areas that a wife should allow her husband to be the head of and some things that wives are better at. I just don’t think the Bible says that every marriage should be like ours.
My friend S. (who is the only one who knows about our relationship) asked if I was P.’s sex slave. What we have is something more than just about sex. It is about trust. S. didn’t believe me when I told her we never had sex until our wedding night.
So far P. has only spanked me twice since our wedding. Once for not typing in my receipts into Quickbooks (a nightly ritual) and once for backing my car into a tree in the yard because I was trying to send a text message to S. I think the tree had more damage than my car.
Enough about this. Those boxes are still sitting upstairs…
E.
Add comment May 31, 2007
backpackinggurl
Welcome to my blog!
Welcome to my blog! This has been one hectic month! I graduated the week of the 14th and married that Saturday! P. and I went backpacking in the Great Smokey Mountain National Park for almost a week. Then we had to move my stuff from my parents’ house to our house. Wow! It is hard to believe I have a house now! It’s hard to believe how much crap I had to move. At first I thought it would all fit in P.’s Escalade. After we boxed it, we had to rent a small UHaul! All of my stuff it piled in one of the spare bedrooms and the garage. That’s my job for the next two weeks – sort through it.
My parents are still pissed off about the whole deal. They did come to see me yesterday while P. was at work, and we ate lunch together (which I cooked BTW). I started a list of things that they claimed to be upset about from their visit:
- I married right after graduation.
- P. and I have only known each other six months.
- P. is nine years older than me.
- I’m not sure if I want to go to college.
Personally I think they are also upset about the fact the P. makes more money than they do and our house is bigger. Of course they wouldn’t say something like that.
My best friend S. is looking for a new job. She works at Hickory Hollow Mall which is really not a great place to be anymore. The type of people hanging out there now are rough. She wants to find a job working with kids since she is starting MTSU this fall to major in Elementary Ed.
I think I will start a new post for my next ranting…
E.
Add comment May 29, 2007
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